(I apologize to all of those out there, who have been wondering where I’ve gone).
Anyways, I decided to sign up for a race. It was a 10km ‘Fun’ Race. I don’t know where the fun goes into the race, but alas it was meant to be low pressure.
I should outline a couple of things:
1. I have never competed in a race before
2. I have never ran more than 8kms before
3. I didn’t train (stupid I know)
So, I decided that for every 1km…I would equate 12lbs of weight that I’ve lost…meaning for a 10km race, it would represent the 120lbs that I’ve lost–and yes after two weeks of HORRIBLE EATING AND NO EXERCISE, I’ve gotten myself back on track 🙂 !!!!!
Anyways, I started out in the race, wrote 120 on my left hand and was off to the races. The first 5kms were average, I was feeling a bit exhausted. We had to do two laps, which isn’t favourable..but it actually wasn’t too bad. I crossed through the 1/2 way point and was almost overwhelmed with a sense of ‘Michelle, you are over 1/2 way you can do this…of course you can’ I almost lost it then..I was overcome with so much.
The 8th KM was the hardest. I was running into the wind and thought that I was going to die..but alas I didn’t There was this older lady in front of me and I decided that I wasn’t going to let her ‘win’. So, I opened up full throttle at the end of the race and blasted past her.
I cried at the end. I was exhausted, but damn it I had made it. This whole journey is exhausting at times and I have now run a race. Maybe a warm-up jog for some people, but I am so proud of myself. There is no way that I could have mentally and/or physically done this last year. I am about 20lbs lighter than I was a year ago (wow I just realised that).
I think that thing that I’ve learned is that you can do anything if you put your mind to you (remember elementary school motivational posters). But I think it’s true. I had someone once say to me, ‘I just can’t do what you do, I can’t give up bread, sweets, etc.’ You can, just as you make the conscience decision to eat them, you can make a decision not to eat them.
So, it’s a rest day for me today, but I think what it’s inspired in me is a new fire for what I want to accomplish in my life. What do I really want to do? That’s the thing that I believe comes about from pushing yourself and finding a place where accomplishment is found…when you don’t expect it.